DAY 30: is your need to submit being met? if not, or if your situation changed, do you think that you could continue in your life and still be happy/content if you were never able to express your submission in the way that feels best to you again? what makes submission special to you?
not entirely. i want to submit more. i want to be used more. i want to be commanded and put in my place more. these are things i crave. i’m able to express my submission in smaller more subtle ways currently but i would love to be more taken in hand, to have it be a bigger part of my everyday life.
what makes submission special is giving over the power and control to someone else, trusting them completely to always have my best interest at heart, and to guide and shape me as they want. this is the ideal for me.